As I was sitting in non-doing at the Temple, after offering my prayers, for some reason I started thinking about him. I have heard about him for over two decades and just thinking how things have changed during that time in our relationship, was an inexplicable feeling.
When I have 10 years old, I have gone to him whenever I needed something. It was always a one-way relationship for me with him. He gives me and I will take it. After a while, shamelessly, I will ask him more and he does not hesitate to give me something else. As a kid, like in many families, there was also a sense of fear associated in relating with him. He was not a very friendly, person or that’s how I assumed he was.
When I was 15 years old, I was continuously told, keeping him happy is not a very easy task. He expects a lot from me and is very demanding. Now, the only way that he will listen and fulfill my demands is to do things that he likes. When I heard this repeatedly from my grandmother and mom, who are very frequent visitor to his house, I was naturally caught into that belief. So, my thought will be, I need THAT from him and for that let me do THIS and made it pure transactional.
Around the same time, I started hearing negative things about him. Though many times, he gave what I needed, there were my family members and relatives who cursed him because he did not give them what they asked and most importantly he took away some things from them that they possessed.
As I grew up and my intelligence was expanding, I wanted to know more about him, how he works, why people flock him always with their needs, how he manages fulfilling some and not fulfill others, what are his criteria and most importantly what should I do to get his love and attention so that he keeps giving what I need. Everyone around me said, it is just no possible to mark him in clear black and white. He cannot be understood so easily, for he is a mystery man. He appeared certainly mysterious. Though he took different forms, commonly he was called with one name – GOD.
It was at this point in my life, my Guru Mahatria walked into my life. I was 24 when I first met him. He had answers for the questions in my mind about the mystery man. He made me experience GOD. How I look at everything around me changed from that moment.
Tears started trickling down my eyes at the Temple. Everything happening in my life is because of my GOD’s grace. I seriously do not know what I have done in my life to be so blessed by HIM.
What a great blessing to be born in a country like India. Teaching me Unity in Diversity and exposing me to different languages, cultures, climatic conditions, food habits and what not. Travel few hours on road and everything I see is different from the place I started. Thanks, to the transferable job of my father, I have got exposure to multiple different parts of this glorious country.
I have seen people who don’t have either their father or mother or both, alive. But HE has given me a great live to experience grand parents, great Parents, good siblings, loving wife and a Child to adore.
When I was in School, I have seen kids who have not been able to go to School due to financial needs and instead have gone to work to earn money for their family. Here I am with my Post Graduation in Computers. I don’t know why HE chose me and what did I do to deserve this.
The other side of transferable job of Parent is to build new friends every couple of years and most importantly teach there are relationships that come for a short duration and not getting completely attached by that. This is a very big experience for me even today. Detached Attachment is what HE taught me in those times, not realizing what he was preparing me for in life.
While there are a lot of people who are jobless or are forced in jobs that they don’t enjoy, here I am doing a job that I love and can take Pride of. With HIS blessings, there has not been a single day in my 17 years of Career that I have been without a job. Thinking about job in 2 different global locations, 3 different cities, 7 different companies – what have I done for HIM to give this opportunity to me.
I have heard about saints, wandering in mountains, going without food for multiple days to weeks at a stretch to experience GOD but whereas in the midst of this beautiful world, I have a Spiritual Guru who has made me experience Silence show me GOD. What have I done in this world, which is better than those Yogis and Saints for me to get such experience.
Amidst people complaining about bad and tough bosses, I have got the experience of working with bosses who know how to get the best out of me and push me out of my comfort zone to make me a better individual and a better person. How come HE made me like this to get the best out of me.
Seeing people struggle in life with habits like drinking, chewing, tobacco, what great did I do personally to be born in a family with clean habits and still living the same. What did I do to get that mental strength to not yield in for temptation or group influences. HE enabled me to live life this way.
In my friends group, I have seen couples long for a child in their life. In our life, he not only gave us one who is the best thing to have happened for us, but also blessed us with another one, on the way. When science and doctors said it is going to be tough, how to explain another pregnancy other than just believing it is his way of making us live our life to the fullest.
In a life, even having a friend who shares my like and dislike is not easy, but in my life HE found a life partner for me who shares most of my likes and dislikes and supports me on things that I am interested in doing, even if that is not something she is interested in. Nothing ever great has been achieved by anyone who is unhappy at home. What a great blessing to have such an amazing spouse in my life. In an arranged marriage, it cannot be without HIS grace and blessings.
I am not without my share of blemishes in life. But HE give me all these despite of my blemishes. He does not stop there but helps me overcome my blemishes by learnings and experiences. He has not given up on me and makes me what I ought to be.
At times, I cannot stop but wonder, what has HE seen in me that he keeps giving me so much in my life without being asked for. My GOD thinks I am very special and is continuously gifting me every single moment. Yes, some of these also involve me doing some activities and responding to things but it is all because of HIM, for even my Thumb cannot move if he wishes against it.
If somebody should be consistently giving me so much in my life, how much does he love me. Sitting there in the Temple, I am drenching in his love for me.
Thank you so much my GOD.
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